My journey to overcoming

Finding my God given purpose

Just when I was going to kiss dating goodbye…..

In walks my Boaz (biblical Prince Charming), looking all tall dark and handsome to change my thoughts that all men are the same…..

 

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He made me realize one thing though, that all boys are the same but not all men…. (Think on it)

Let’s back up though …

About 10 months ago I decided to get back on the dating scene. I wanted to experience real dates and get the chance to learn what I liked and disliked.  Yes serial dating, as in going on as many dates as possible until I find a guy I see potential in to spend more time with. Some say this is the wrong way to do things. However, this is the only way I could see what I wanted and didn’t want. (Yes I’m very picky and indecisive) I wanted that old school dating experience or as old people say “Courting”.

We always say what we want in a guy but sometimes until we spend time with them it can change. Just when I was ready to give up on my spree the guy I never thought would be my type became my type. The guy that I needed at this point in my life came right on time.

Just like that Mr. Tall, Dark and Handsome appeared.

I will admit I’m still in awe because I feel like I’m living a dream sometimes. Sometimes we go through so many bad guys, that when a good one comes along its hard to believe. Like how could this perfect gentleman like a little country girl like me??? Like what does he want with me?

I let my self-doubt and fears go and trusted God and prayed that God would bring the right guy in my life. After all my praying just when I least expected it in walks my Boaz.

Because for the first time ever I dated (or courted) the old school way and allowed myself to trust God for a good relationship. I let my mate pursue me for once and went on actual dates instead of Netflix & chill.

Yes that’s right I let him find me, date me (take me to more than just a movie) and make a commitment (not a situationship but a relationship).

 He who finds a [true] wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord. Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing …
-Proverbs 18:22

But before I allowed him to pick me up for the first time, I prayed for God’s guidance in this journey of dating and that I have discernment.

That was what I did differently, for the first time I allowed God to lead my love life.

In everything you do, put God first, and he will direct you and crown your efforts with success.
-Proverbs 3:6

I’m just here to say that when the time is right God will send your soulmate your way. Stop stressing and worrying that you will never find anyone and you will be single forever. Trust your timing in your singleness, or your relationship.

“For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.”-Ecclesiastes 3:1

Book Review-My Road Too Wholeness: My Journey Vol 1

Trina Holiness has done it again and made an ultimate literary comeback with her newest publication.  She stunned us all with her first book which was full of transparency and encouragement for young women to learn from your mistakes. As I have been following her growing literary ministry I was so excited to get my hands on her newest publication. I was even blessed with the wonderful opportunity to be the first stop on her virtual book tour for the first installment My Road Too Wholeness: My Journey.

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This time Trina comes back even harder with not only transparency but a beautiful testimony of what God has done in her life. My Journey is devised to encourage women to pursue their Godly purpose in life while being transparent and whole. It is truly a beautiful testament of her faith.

My Journey Vol 1 is beautifully written for anyone to understand and a inspirational guide for anyone yearning to find their purpose. This Book is a devotional with not only scriptural references but songs and book reference to help you through the tough times. 

As I sat cried and read the testimony it truly made me realize, God will never put more on you than you can bear. I was reminded of my health issues that I am dealing with but reading this amazing testimony made me to want to press through.  Her transparency is a reminder that you never know what someone is going through and everyone has a story. I was in awe of how Trina added a biblical reference to each trial she was brought trough.

One of the most quotable references was her comparison to feeling like Job in the bible (one of my favorite biblical figures actually). Let’s take a quick bible lesson real quick! Remember Job is a Godly and prosperous family man. God allows Satan to mess with Job and he ultimately goes through different trials and tribulations that lead him to losing his kids, health and property. Even though Job was such a good man he might not have always stopped to consider God’s blessings and miracles until it was too late.

“All right, you may test him,” the LORD said to Satan. Do whatever you want with everything he possesses, but don’t harm him physically.So Satan left the LORD’s presence.” (Job 1:12 NLT)

However, let’s remember Satan cannot do whatever he wants with us. Satan is only allowed to do what God allows him to do! God allowed this so that he could get his glory in the end. Instead of giving up after all of this, Job praised God even more. God rewarded him by blessing him with double.  Whew! God is so awesome.  

 Trina, like Job, was able to count her blessings after enduring trials. Remember there is always a blessing in the breaking and ever test has a testimony. Let’s embrace our tough times and realize that in the discomfort God can do miracles. We have praise God and not complain. Allow God to show you the beauty in your journey.

 Okay okay I won’t tell anymore you have to read My Journey Vol.1 for yourself and allow it to miraculously change your life and outlook. I am so excited to follow Trina’s ministry on her journey to overcoming. This beautiful publication proves that “Broken Crayons still color”. 

For your own free copy of this mind blowing devotional subscribe to the My Journey newsletter and receive the My Journey Vol 1 E-book:

http://www.myroad2wholeness.blogspot.com/

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“The Quintessential Southern Bell”

Unfortunately I am a long time fan of “Real housewives of Atlanta”, it’s one of my guilty pleasures that I really shouldn’t feed into but I do. Some even say I remind them of the longtime cast member Phaedra Parks. Could be because she is short, beautiful, in the legal field (which I aspire to be in), “has five degrees (work in progress)”, doesn’t really need a man to validate her, very goal oriented and is the “quintessential southern bell” like myself. She is also one of my favorite out of the cast. However, when I look at her I see myself not only because of her bio but because she just like many other successful black women, thought that she could mold a man into what she wanted him to be. She married a man that had just got out of jail thinking he was changed and saw the potential in him. There is only a short amount of time that a person can hide his true colors. 

One of my biggest regrets is falling for a guy because of his potential or because I thought I could change him. Didn’t realize that he has to want to change and that I could only be a positive influence on that decision. I can’t make up that decision for him. I tried many times to play God and fix him into being a better person or pray that God would change him.  When in reality God can only change someone when he lives in side you. (Think on it ) 

Hello God it’s me…..your daughter!

Have you ever experienced being in a situation where no matter how much you prayed or what you did it felt like God didn’t hear you? Or as soon as you are on the right track trying to live a better life everything seems to be coming against you ?

God never promised that this journey would be easy but he did promise he will help us through. He never said that the devil wouldn’t try his hardest to break our spirit. The devil is always busy trying to get us to break especially when we try to live a God led life. We all go through those seasons it’s just the matter of not loosing your faith and keeping your focus on the only one that will get you through, God. He hears our prayers, he may not fix the situation but he will give us the strength to get through it.

There are those moments you start to feel so overwhelmed with everything going on around you and in your life, and wonder why things are not going as planned. Those seasons we can get so busy with everything going on in our lives that we get caught up in the busyness and we forget to spend time with God. Then we wonder why our life is off track. We might be going to church but not spending quality time reading the word and praying like we need to. When we spend time with God it truly can change a situation by taking your focus off your problems. It’s okay, I know you are probably thinking I don’t know how to spend time with God. Well you know how to spend time with anybody you love so you can spend time with God. Talk to him like you would talk to a friend, pour your heart out to him.

Remember that faith without works is dead, and works without faith is dead. You have to put in work (spend time with God) and keep the faith in order to live an organized stress free life.

God is listening

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Embrace your journey

“Stop comparing your beginning to someone else’s middle”. It took me 25 years but I finally understand this. At age 21, I had my next 5 years planned out and how I thought my life would be. Turns out God had a different plan. The 3 degrees, husband, house and excellent career I thought I would have by 25, is actually 1 college degree, apartment and single.

That’s fine though because at 25 I am finally embracing my journey and understanding my purpose. I have learned to allow the space in between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me. I know there are greater things to come but timing is everything.

After having some trying times in the beginning of the year. I finally realized about a month ago everything I was going through was apart of my divine purpose. It took months of fasting, praying and sewing seeds to see Gods plan was coming together.

At the end of 2014, I see why things happened the way they did. I now understand the reason for all my hard work and patiently waiting. Everything makes sense as I walk into my purpose.

Sometimes we allow everyone’s opinions about where we should be right now place fear in us. Especially our family and friends because we think they would know what’s best for us, but only God knows the plan for our lives. We need to understand there is a time and season for everything. My time and your time isn’t the same, that’s why we are all made different. I now understand why I needed to embrace my journey because broken crayons still color !

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Hurt people….hurt people

Low self esteem, unforgiveness, bitterness, abuse, hatred. It all plays a part in why we hurt the ones we love. It is known that those who have been emotionally damaged tend to inflict their hurt and pain on other people.
When we aren’t happy with ourselves or with our lives we take out all our emotions on anyone we think played a part in our situation.

Until you come to terms with the reason why you are hurting emotionally you won’t heal. I know from experience that until I came to terms with self esteem issues that rooted from growing up with out my father, I couldn’t grow into the person I needed to be. Once I realized those issues and prayed continually to release my past hurt and pain I was able to change for the better.

The bitterness that I harbored from growing up fatherless I took out on others by holding grudges and unforgiveness. Even though my father died when I was young, I still felt that I was missing out on a father daughter relationship. I continually used guys as a void because I thought they could give me the love I didn’t get from my father. I know sounds so cliche but it’s so true. When we are hurt we go looking for love in the wrong places. It took me hitting rock bottom and to only have God to turn to to realize he was the only one that could help me heal that hurt.

We have to end that hurt and pain before it wrecks our lives. If we don’t end the hurt we can pass it on to our children and the cycle of pain will continue for generations. Hurt people …hurt people but we can heal the hurt. Broken crayons still color.

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Trusting God in the storm..

It’s crazy how many sermons, songs and quotes I have heard about “Trusting God in the Storm.” I never truly believed it until I began to be put into more and more situations over and over again, where I had no one to depend on but God. When you are put in those situations you do not automatically think “if he did it before he could do it again”. It takes time, patience, trusting God and overcoming to get to that point. After reaching the point where I couldn’t even think anymore I finally put all my hopes, plans, wishes, finances, job,  goals and life in his hands.

It is such a powerful moment when you reach that mark of peace where you don’t worry about anything. That moment where there are a zillion and one things coming at you, but you know God’s grace and mercy will bring you through. I had one of those break through moments this week where everything was falling apart including myself but I had to cry it out, then pray and tell God “I cant do this on my own I need to put everything in your hands.” As soon as I stop worrying, stopped mopping around and knew my God would work it out everything start coming together. It is so true that “he may not come when you want him but he will be right on time.” I am slowly learning that everything works according to him that is good. If it isn’t working out it isn’t his plan. I am putting all my trust in him to work out everything for my good.

I had to reach my breaking point to finally put all my trust in God. There is always a blessing in the breaking. “It’s already getting better.”

God I may not understand how everything will work out but I trust you. I don t see a way, but I know you will make a way. I have Peace !!!

Broken crayons still color !!!